Reflections

Don't you ever wonder why this blog has rarely have sort of emo entries? I can tell you why. This is because the author tends to think about this in his head rather than letting it all out. At times, he doesn't say because he either nowhere near a pen and paper to write or he's just bottled it up.

Why does the author bottled up his emotions? This is because he grew up learning to keep things inside. Is kinda like a reflex muscle or an automatic action he does to himself. The answer is simple: he grew up alone.

He didn't had a sibling to talk to much. He has only a "sister" who isn't his a biological one yet has to call her one. She's hard to talk to sometimes as she is ten years older and at times hard to talk to. Parents can't always relate to you the best answers. He didn't really trust in God and he didn't talk to Him often. Only offering mechanical prayer at times of needs. He envies people who has a great relationship with their siblings even though he knows sometimes they can be a pain. But yet, he yearns for one.

He grew weary about his friends. Wondering or not, is he really a person they want to pick around with? The author feels that another cycle is approaching. The same cycle he went through last year. He tries not to think about it, but yet his hearts is constantly being stabbed. As he types this out, he wonders how some of his friends didn't fulfilled their promises to him. That being said, he wonders again how some of his school friends have started to shun him away. Or maybe it was because he was not that important anymore?

At times he wonders whether or not, to simply just remain bottled up as usual. Somehow, he has survive this long years by putting it all up within him. Can he carry up with his life he wonders?

How he yearns for a good friend that can always be there at times. He thinks he has one but he isn't sure anymore. How he longs also for a sibling that looks up to him at times. But will he ever get one? Will he receive such attention?

He tried to find peace by reading the poem he put in his blog. Yet, he doesn't feel any better. He seeks songs that will lift him up. He finds the correct song but doesn't want to listen to it in fear of crying over a silly thing.

In the end, he just wants a friend who is there all the time...
A sibling that looks up to him and enjoys being in the company of him.
He years for companionship.........

That is how Yeow Zim Sen feels tonight...
In all,
he's tired of everything...
He needs someone that will help him out at times like these...

Notice!!!

Notice from the National Bank of Lala Land.

Dear Mr Yeow Zim Sen...

We have noticed you have an outstanding account of not sleeping which has yet not been payed in full. We sincerely hope that you will clear out your debts with us as soon as you can. If nothing will is done, this blog is therefore deleted and your sleeps will be unpleasant.

Thank you and regards,

Secretary of National Bank of Lala Land.
Tarnia Tionne.

Of random chatter and other random stuff

All right all right, I admit to being super lazy to blog. Heck, even the food review is done. Is just that, it's way too short.

I only decided to do it like on Monday when I was returning from Ipoh. Argh, I dunno should I post it or not. This week has been quite hectic. I mean I feel so not productive at all, wasting my time playing games, going out (almost everyday). I only manage to watch the Forbidden Kingdom, in which is only one, when there's other movies like Iron Man, Speed Racer, Prince Caspian, and the upcoming Indiana Jones.

Man oh man, I feel so lost or rather wasted. ARGH, actually maybe I should just blog later. I just don't have the mood to do one. So I shall leave you all with just a random comic strip I saw the other day:


If you can't read it just click on it and don't be lazy. RAWRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-ZS-

Washed, Wax, Vacummed

In the light of Jon's attack of tags (which this writer manages to escape) I will update. Or not he will throw something sharp at my general direction (sorry Jon, couldn't resist...)

Okay about the reviews. Erm how to say about it? I rather just pick one of the following categories I mention in the last post and just write one. I will write one review every Sunday which means I owe 1 review. I will probably write both of them this coming weekend when I'm outstation. It's interesting how free you all when you have no freakin internet over the weekend.

So how's my life been? Hmmm.... Generally it's been all right. I not so stress up like two good friends. I don't know is it personality wise or I don't feel the stress. Oh well, maybe it's just me. So what's left for this semester? Two more presentations, two individual assignments and also one more group assignment. And there's always them tutorials I need to do for Business Statistics.

For my spiritual life, I have to really admit that I haven't actually touched my devotion book for uber long. I find myself really struggling to really sit down, quieten myself and do some devotion.
Well that's rather it, I actually want to go further about certain things. But I rather not, since I don't really find myself in the mood. So till then... Ciaoz

-ZS-