Twice I felt this...

Sometimes I ever do wonder why I let myself to pull out the knife that is in my heart? While the wound heals, it plunges again into my heart.

I felt this so long ago, never did I want to feel this again. Yet somehow, twice I felt that something I have grown to love be taken away from me again.

Then this brings the question on why should I seek companionship in this love that I have nurtured. Twice it has come, only this time I felt that it more personal. And if I attempt to join it, I feel that I should not since, the saying "three's a crowd" comes to my head.

Which makes me wonder sometimes why I'm always alone? As life in this world progress on, I wonder, I realize that the closer I get with someone, the harder or rather the pain when they separate and move on. As a think of it, I realize most of my frens whom I grew attach with often moved on so fast that I'm left out.

And then I hear this very small voice on the back of my head saying "You'll always be alone." It whispers me to yet hit the hardest. How I long for a companionship that can really last and yet I can always tell. But for this problem can't be shared to that person for the problem lies with me and the problem is about the person.

How it turns out to be a pain that I just want to walk away and never return. How I wish I could just turn off my feelings and not care. How I just want to... be loved and to love one another...

My two attempts...

So my last two days at attempting to eat Carl's Jr. has failed miserably

Why? It's because of those BLASTED MALAYS who go there and order their food and like stare at them until 7:20PM.

For goodness sake people, why not you just go take it away. I don't care if you have to screw your fast plans but will it be too hard for you like to NOT eat there? There are people LIKE me who has yet to taste of 1 of this delicious burgers and you all crapped up like tuna or sardines to be slaughtered in there.

Blargh, that said also I don't get to eat it anyway. Two whole days stuck in the jam towards MV with Nas and Gal. All hopes gone down the drain those two darn days. I blame Nas for the first attempt for finishing her work late XD.

Well, on a positive side, Gal and me saw a hailer person around. She was so intentively eating that she didn't notice both of us infront of her :P

And I also bought a new CD which I wanted for sometime.
If you guys can't recognize her, then no worries, she's a Jap artist. So to those who don't listen to J-pop need not to be ashamed XD.

Her name is Yuna Ito, I like her music cuz it's kinda like a erm how would I say it, has a positive upbeat in her music and yeah it's nice to have a break away from Ayumi and BoA sometimes.

Hey, even Gal listens to her music, so yeah that means Gal has good taste of music to those who question my taste of music. And he listen to like to quite some of the updated songs on the radio now unlike me who listens to my iPod wherever I go.

Anyway, I can't really stress much, since I have hunger pangs now. On a last note...

Next time Carls Jr.. Next time I WILL GET YOU!!!

Christianity 1500 years ago and today...

Okay the article for this update is actually in my CG's blog.

So click here to check it out.

I strongly encourage those who visit my blog to check it out. As Joel, is one of most influential in my life, his teachings are an eye opener. So do pay visit and read the article. Cheers...