Reflections

Don't you ever wonder why this blog has rarely have sort of emo entries? I can tell you why. This is because the author tends to think about this in his head rather than letting it all out. At times, he doesn't say because he either nowhere near a pen and paper to write or he's just bottled it up.

Why does the author bottled up his emotions? This is because he grew up learning to keep things inside. Is kinda like a reflex muscle or an automatic action he does to himself. The answer is simple: he grew up alone.

He didn't had a sibling to talk to much. He has only a "sister" who isn't his a biological one yet has to call her one. She's hard to talk to sometimes as she is ten years older and at times hard to talk to. Parents can't always relate to you the best answers. He didn't really trust in God and he didn't talk to Him often. Only offering mechanical prayer at times of needs. He envies people who has a great relationship with their siblings even though he knows sometimes they can be a pain. But yet, he yearns for one.

He grew weary about his friends. Wondering or not, is he really a person they want to pick around with? The author feels that another cycle is approaching. The same cycle he went through last year. He tries not to think about it, but yet his hearts is constantly being stabbed. As he types this out, he wonders how some of his friends didn't fulfilled their promises to him. That being said, he wonders again how some of his school friends have started to shun him away. Or maybe it was because he was not that important anymore?

At times he wonders whether or not, to simply just remain bottled up as usual. Somehow, he has survive this long years by putting it all up within him. Can he carry up with his life he wonders?

How he yearns for a good friend that can always be there at times. He thinks he has one but he isn't sure anymore. How he longs also for a sibling that looks up to him at times. But will he ever get one? Will he receive such attention?

He tried to find peace by reading the poem he put in his blog. Yet, he doesn't feel any better. He seeks songs that will lift him up. He finds the correct song but doesn't want to listen to it in fear of crying over a silly thing.

In the end, he just wants a friend who is there all the time...
A sibling that looks up to him and enjoys being in the company of him.
He years for companionship.........

That is how Yeow Zim Sen feels tonight...
In all,
he's tired of everything...
He needs someone that will help him out at times like these...

Notice!!!

Notice from the National Bank of Lala Land.

Dear Mr Yeow Zim Sen...

We have noticed you have an outstanding account of not sleeping which has yet not been payed in full. We sincerely hope that you will clear out your debts with us as soon as you can. If nothing will is done, this blog is therefore deleted and your sleeps will be unpleasant.

Thank you and regards,

Secretary of National Bank of Lala Land.
Tarnia Tionne.

Of random chatter and other random stuff

All right all right, I admit to being super lazy to blog. Heck, even the food review is done. Is just that, it's way too short.

I only decided to do it like on Monday when I was returning from Ipoh. Argh, I dunno should I post it or not. This week has been quite hectic. I mean I feel so not productive at all, wasting my time playing games, going out (almost everyday). I only manage to watch the Forbidden Kingdom, in which is only one, when there's other movies like Iron Man, Speed Racer, Prince Caspian, and the upcoming Indiana Jones.

Man oh man, I feel so lost or rather wasted. ARGH, actually maybe I should just blog later. I just don't have the mood to do one. So I shall leave you all with just a random comic strip I saw the other day:


If you can't read it just click on it and don't be lazy. RAWRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-ZS-

Washed, Wax, Vacummed

In the light of Jon's attack of tags (which this writer manages to escape) I will update. Or not he will throw something sharp at my general direction (sorry Jon, couldn't resist...)

Okay about the reviews. Erm how to say about it? I rather just pick one of the following categories I mention in the last post and just write one. I will write one review every Sunday which means I owe 1 review. I will probably write both of them this coming weekend when I'm outstation. It's interesting how free you all when you have no freakin internet over the weekend.

So how's my life been? Hmmm.... Generally it's been all right. I not so stress up like two good friends. I don't know is it personality wise or I don't feel the stress. Oh well, maybe it's just me. So what's left for this semester? Two more presentations, two individual assignments and also one more group assignment. And there's always them tutorials I need to do for Business Statistics.

For my spiritual life, I have to really admit that I haven't actually touched my devotion book for uber long. I find myself really struggling to really sit down, quieten myself and do some devotion.
Well that's rather it, I actually want to go further about certain things. But I rather not, since I don't really find myself in the mood. So till then... Ciaoz

-ZS-

Reviews...

In a hope that I might someday enter the Hailer. I actually hope to write some reviews. Reviews on things like music, games, books, movies and food.

I be posting a poll to see which item would like to be reviewed. Of cause, you may submit a product to me for a review. But only if I roughly know about the item. So yeah, I will try to review every once a week an item that would be the highest poll results.

This is also to keep my blog updated and thus making me a more busy person in the blog. Of course there would be still the updates on my life every now and then. Here's a short update:

Life at college has becoming more work recently. With an individual and a group assignment for most of the subjects I'm taking, I can foresee a long journey ahead of me. But surprisingly, I do not actually feel the pressure yet. I somehow know that I will finish everything that has been given to me. Hmmm... Perhaps I'm overconfident? Or maybe I really know how to time myself? Guess I will find out in the coming weeks ahead of me...

Well that's pretty much to blog today. I get the review thing up soon. The reviews will be edited by my great friend Jonathan Chu (if he has the time). Well till then folks....

-ZS-

Updates

I'm back after a long long break from not blogging. So what's been in my life? At college, the "honeymoon" time has finally end and the assignments are been send into my life at college.

My social life has been the same. Not much change, still with the crazy people almost everyday. Either going to expensive places to eat until we are so afraid to eat there for now or planning for things to do but never come through because of various reasons.

Last week, was the first time in this year, that I didn't go to my campus youth zone simply because of laziness. So there, I confessed, I was out with some friends playing COD4 again. I also had like the entire weekend off to myself. Hahahahaha.... My parents was away at Thailand on their business trip. So I had the entire house to myself. But being a good son, I didn't throw any party. And I also still did my chores. Am so proud of myself. XD

I also rearrange my room.
So neat right now? So where did all my stuff on the table when? It went here...
All that mess... used to belong to the table up there. Well at least now I have a work table in my own room.

I think I shall end here. I was just stabbed in me heart. Ahhhhhhhhhhh..... No camera for me......

-ZS-

*Edited*

Okay I'm back... after playing Generals I feel better. So what did I move exactly? Here's what I did...

Basically, I swapped the writing table and the display table.

It took me quite some time to move it around. The display case was very heavy and had to use lots of strength and balance to move it. Since I got so many things being display. Well that's rather it. I think I best start using back the old camera, pictures are not that clear anymore. RAWR!!!!

-ZS-

P/S My grammar is really getting bad. A lot of wrong grammar. Too much IM talking...

April Fool

As the title says, it was April Fool's Day. I woke up to the sound of my hand phone message tone "Heroes Title". So this is what she said:

"After tis u pls dnt msg or cal me.. I think its better 4 us 2 stop our frenship.. I'm so sori 4 tis, bt u really hurt me.. Thanx.. Thanx so much.. Thanx 4 everything! Its all over nw.. Gud bye!!"

Yes I know it has a lot of typo error but what do you expect from a sms? Now being just awoken. I stupidly sms her back knowing well what I just read. In my head, April Fool was the last thing that occur to me. She spent back a very simple message asking me to read the whole thing again. And lo and behold, the final part of the message says:

"Can u tel me which movie is tiz dialogue frm? Hahaha, Scared edi?"

At that moment I was like OMG I got pranked first thing in the morning. But the day didn't end with just that one. Later after business statistics class, having played a few rounds of chor dai dee. Pheebs said that why nobody didn't prank anyone at all? So MARWAN, came to the rescue and propose a prank on someone. I immediately slapped the idea of Mr President AKA Jon Chu's car. I propose the idea that Jon Chu's car had a hit and run case in which his car's back was totally wrecked. Just picture a Proton Saga which back was hit at like 90KPH and there you have it.

Here's the list of who were involved:
1) Marwan - The Actor, his dramatic appearance to the class with bad news for Jon Chu.
2) Paul - The Crafty Accomplice who increases Jon Chu's fear
3) Phoebe - The Producer of it all, without her there won't be a prank
4)Su Yen - The Photographer, her video taping skills is one of the key elements to make this prank a successful memory.
5) Me!!! - Who gave the idea who to prank and details on what to prank.
6) Jon Chu - The victim who we Punk'D. Without your cooperation this can never happen. Thank You



The VIDEO IS UPLOADED. WOOT...

And I did another prank with someone just now. I admit I was being very spontaneous the whole way until the end. Here's how it goes:

ZS: tmw I fool you la
Chibi Bubu: eh..cannot..today only..1st of april..
ZS: can la
Chibi Bubu: cannnot...
ZS: I say can... planning with marwan now
Chibi Bubu: i say cannot... no...stop tht..cannot means cannot eh
ZS: can can can
Chibi Bubu: cannot cannot cannot
ZS: can can can... I ask jon to help aso
Chibi Bubu: cannot cannot cannot..eh... like planning big project like tht..so many ppl... no cannot... i kena fooled 4 times today la... cannot... kesian enough dy
ZS: aww u poor thing... it's okay... we plan urs tmw now
Chibi Bubu: what are friends for??
ZS: u really dont want me to answer that... cuz i will give a long long long answer
Chibi Bubu: hmm...wellz//then is ok :P
ZS: so done... we finish planning
Chibi Bubu: are u serious? pls dun do thIs to me... PLS
ZS: what time ur class ar tmw
Chibi Bubu: eh..not going to tell u..hahaha... o..i dun have class tmr..nene... hahahaha
ZS: i know... the whole idea... was that YOU thought that I would prank you
Chibi Bubu: omg.................................................................
ZS: HAHAHAHAH
Chibi Bubu: emmm.... u terrible..
ZS: hahaha actually I didnt know... it was all spontaneous talking... so real right?
Chibi Bubu: gosh...

So here's to the end of April Fools Day. I know I still haven't blog about last week. But what the heck this was way much more fun. Cheers...

-ZS-

Of Cheesecakes and Birthday Wishes....

So yes, the author of this blog has turned TWENTY!!! So what can I say about it? Nothing much has happen today though. Just spend the hours raking kills in COD4 in the nearby local CC. I did however ate at Chilis on Sunday night and cut me cake yesterday. So here's what I ate at Chilis:

The Grill Lamb... I think...

I simply adored the mashed potato. It's totally different compare to KFC's one. The sauce was creamy and all. The meat was not too bad. It was cook rare I think. Since there were some blood but still enjoyable.

Had a cheesecake for my birthday. The cheese is very rich. The strawberries were very sour. But hey, a cake is a cake. Still I was hoping for a Secret Recipe Blueberry Cheesecake. Hahaha.

Well here's a list of people who wished me today. Those who do, I am so happy that you all bothered to waste 5 minutes of your time to do it. This is in order who wished me...

1) Pre-U CG (They surprised me during CG and then drag me to Williams)
2) Gal (We both wished each other one day before it for fun.)
3) Eric Wen
4) Lizzie (The first to wish me at 12:15 am)
5) Sze Keong
6) Trisha (First sms)
7) Pris
8) Munn Sing
9) Su Yen
10) Jonat Chu (The joker who sms me at freaking 3am in the morning)
11) Jason Liew
12) Ezreena
13) May Choo
13) Paul Leong
14) Sze Ming
15) Joshua San (First backward message I ever get :S)
16) Vin Sie
17) Choon Sam
18) Jia Yi
19) En Ai
20) Rachel Soon
21) Joyce Oo
22) Shaun Lim
23) Ben Micheal

19/03/08
1) Marwan
2) Phoebe Kim
3) Donna Tan
4) Christine Tan
5) Eunice Lam
6) Gavan Chua
7) Eunice Peh

26/03/08
1) Crystal Cha

28/03/08
1) Rachel Quah (wanted to wish me 10-day belated birthday)

30/03/08
1) Pam Lyn

Well that's all for now. I will keep it update. But those who did wish me the first day. I will indeed bless you all with something. Now.... Onward to SINGAPORE!!!!

-ZS-


**Edited**

I will post tmw. I think I still prefer the one week one post style for me. If there is something interesting I may post more. And oh yeah, if your names aren't on the list, that means I forgot and you can kindly tell me that I forgot and put it back up.

Delay...

I blog tmw k? I just want to enjoy what's left of March 16th doing other purposeful stuff....

Till then enjoy a picture of Hiro in cat-form

Cheers...

-ZS-

Tagged

Yes, tagged again by Jon Chu. Gosh you know exams are like coming soon, so can we lay off the tags? If Pheebs does the next tag, I do mine deal?

Here we go...

List out 5 presents you wish for...

1. A new desktop computer with all the new stuff in it. Stuff like the latest graphic card, a huge amount of disk space, great processor and a nice new LCD screen...

2. A new camera. Not aiming for them pro cameras. But I would like a nice slim one where it can just slip into my pocket. Something from Nikon or Sony.

3. A chance to be on the Amazing Race Asia. I know that's far off but hey I would love to do it. It be cool. I book you JON!!!!

4. The PS3... I know it's out and the games are expensive. But but, the games are so freakin clear. I want to play MGS4 on it. ><

5. A scholarship to a Uni in America. I need one to go there.

The Person Who Tagged You Is: PIG TAKE EGG

Your 5 impressions of him/her was:

• Outgoing
• Stress
• Sarcastic
• Funny
  
• Food Fanatic
  

The most memorable thing he/she has done/given to you: The daily crazy stuff we talk everyday

The most memorable thing he/she has said to you: RAWR!!!!!

If he/she becomes your lover, you will: Him and me? Nah, we will end up hating each other :D

If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be: As mention above...

5 people you want to tag?

• Erm erm. Rachel Soon cuz you blog very often
  
• Pheebs the Kimster I'm also stressing it now. UPDATE THE BLOG!!!
• Dexter Tang
  
• Galriad Tan
• Christine Tan

Next is them boring questions. The Attack of The Boring Questions!!! RAWR!!!

Who is no. 3 having a relationship with?
Eh. Nobody gua

Who is no. 5 having a relationship with?
I also think nobody gua

no. 2 and no. 3 get together, will it be a good thing?
Nope never, unless no.2 breaks up with her current bf and can stand his sarcasm and and and... I will end right here.

What about no. 4 and no. 5?
Same surname. LOL. Nah I don't know. It be weird though

What is no. 3 studying?
Eh business in Monash. Forgot what was the major

When was the last time you chatted with no. 5?
Last week for the supposed movie trip

Does no. 4 work?
Nope.

Do you have any cousin in his/her school?
We are cousins!!! Same birthday mah. LOL

Will you be with no. 1?
Erm gosh so tricky. I guess no la. But life has it's way to slap you when you least expect it

How about no. 5?
I dunno. Maybe not. Time to move on.

Does no. 2 have any siblings?
Yeah.

How did you get to know no.2 and no. 4?
No. 2 - Pheebs the Kimster - College
No. 4 - Galriad Tan - College and same birthday

Where does no. 1 live at?
Somewhere in her house in USJ

Is no. 5 the sexiest person in the world?
Do you think you're sexy, Kisstine?

There I'm done. Now drop it for the time being. RAWR!!!! So are we still catching that movie? Lol....

-ZS-