Bad bad chemicals...

My head hurts. I think there my mom applied too much dye color on my head. Now I got a good headache which makes me feel like sleeping now... Bah, too lazy to do assignments now. Gosh, my head hurts...

-ZS-

Hunger and Thrist

My heart raced as I journey back home after talking to Joel about this week's message. As I think on what he said, "We must always hunger and thirst for righteous." What does he really mean by that? It means that WE must get out of our so called "comfort zone". We must always keep hunger and thirst what we truly want. An example he gave me was that if you wanted a new phone, camera, game console or anything is not within your allowance or budget. What will you do then? Wait around for the things you want to drop on your head? No right? We will think of ways to get it. Ways such as working, saving your cash, and sacrificing the extra things that we use everyday. I believe most of us know ways to achieve that thing you want so badly.

So in the spiritual terms, how is it different? Well, it's also in the same way, just that the goals are different. In some sense, it's to strive to be like the best person out there. Hard to achieve? Yes. It's like when we take upon the name Christian. What does that mean? Sure the textbox answer is that we are followers of Christ. BUT!!! What does it mean to be followers of Christ? Followers of Christ are people who WILL go to the ends of the world to preach the word of God. If you think ends of the world is far, then look around you. How many people are out there around you who are NOT Christian? So why do we do? We sit back and just wait for God to come and take us home? He might take you and he might not. But which is worse? Meeting Him in person and asking us who did we really reach out to. Or staying back and facing so many tribulations? So to hunger and thirst for righteousness, it’s a never ending striving. It's like can you be the most righteous man in the word? If you can, then you are most probably filled already.

Another example would be your grades. If you get an A or B or C or a Pass and you are okay with that, that is not striving, that is just being happy and where you are. If you aim to get like an A+, then that is a goal. But what if you cannot achieve that goal? Then just continue. Same like in a spiritual context. Do you dare to take the risk to be violated, beaten, look down upon, and be called names? I tell you the truths, if you can do that, then you are just like Jesus. I mean, suffer then suffer la. Jesus also suffered for us. Do not forget the humiliation that we have watched on Passion Of The Christ.

"Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, For they shall be filled" Matthew 5: 6

-ZS-

Tagged By Lizzie

The rules laid out are:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on Shuffle mode.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Write any comments you have after the song name.
5. Tag everyone who’s linked to your blog (those reading this entry included too!) and get them to tell you when they’ve done theirs, so you can both laugh at each other’s “misfortunes” or “coincidences”! =D

If someone says "is this okay?" you say?
Traverse Town by Yoko Shimomura
(Ah well, actually this track is from the Kingdom Hearts Soundtrack. It's kinda of a lay back tune since it's played a place where there is no enemies.)

How would you describe yourself?
Baby It's You(Remix) by Jojo
(Er well... guess I'm loyal when in comes to a relationship... Guess I can't forget someone who I liked despite moving on)

What do you like in a guy/girl?
Your Name By The Hope Project
(Okay, er... guess she's gotta a person who likes music and a Christian?)

How do you feel today?
Final Distance By Utada Hikaru
(Arrr...this song is kinda like an emo/love song which is not what I'm feeling now)

What is your life's purpose?
Marvelous Light By Derek Webb
(To be salty and lighty to the world. Heh)

What is your motto?
I want By Fly To The Sky Feat. Kangta & BoA
(Can't find any translations of this song so my motto is "You can't go through live without someone annoyed or hating you")

What do your friends think of you?
On The Conveyor Belt By John Williams
(No comments.)

What do you think of your parents?
Still Time(Piano Version) By Hidenori Tokuyama
(Totally not the right song. But oh well, guess I can say for my dad who is lay back and cool most of the time)

What do you think about very often?
Jesus By Planetshakers
(I like to say that it's true. But for the last few months I been straying away. I guess it's a sign...)

What do you think of your best friend?
Great Is The Lord By Planetshakers
(Best friend? Gosh I don't think I ever have one. But if there is one, he's probably singing this song.

What is your life story?
Forgotten By Avril Lavigne
(Er... some what I feel it's true sometimes.)

What do you want to be when you grow up?
Fight For All The Wrong Reasons By Nickelback
(Nay, I won't be rebel all the time.)

What do you think of when you see the person you like?
God Of Wonders By Passion Worship Band
(I thank God for being a God of Wonders? Er... does that sound right?)

What will they play at your funeral?
Deep Drive By Yoko Shimomura
(I don't want to remember with this song playing. It's a battle theme from Kingdom Hearts II Soundtrack. Kinda like the last level. So you can imagine from there)

What is your hobby/interest?
SAKURA Drops By Utada Hikaru
(Hahaha, listening to J-pop Music but this is not 1 of my fav. songs)

What is your biggest fear?
Hand In Hand By Yoko Shimomura
(Okay this song's background is like a starting of a new journey which I'm not afraid I guess. So yeah, wrong song yet again)

What is your biggest secret?
My Life Is Yours By Planetshakers
(Guess that is not really a secret isn't it?)

What do you think of your friends?
Random Waltz By Hitoshi Sakimoto, Masaharu Iwata
(Er, bunch of people who sometimes say the most craziest random stuff and they like to waltz. LOL.)

Well the rules say you gotta do and personally I want to see you all do it :P

Reflections

Tagged By Chev

1) Each player must post these rules first.
2) Each player starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
3) People who are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post these rules.
4) At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
5) Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.

ZS's 8 random facts/habits
1) I am not a morning person. Even on the weekends I spent at least 2 extra hours sleeping in the afternoon
2) I'm really into Star Wars. Especially the novels which extends at least 40 years after A New Hope
3) When I go to a camp, I come back falling sick every time.
4) I'm actually writing a fanfiction but I haven't got the entire outline done out yet.
5) I'm committed to God to not have any relationship or whatever for 10 years which began in when I was 16. (Oh yeah, some people gave me a really shocked look.)
6) I need rice everyday and I mean EVERYDAY!!!
7) I actually made a call to someone in Adelaide and it cost me RM27 for 27 minutes
8) I'm a sucker to the original stuff. Stuff like cds, vcds, dvd, clothes, anything that is original.

I tag: Nobody, unless you are so desperately wanting to do it but let me know ya?

Reflections...

Surviving Lame Cat By Joel

Before you read this poem, I thought that it would be helpful to let you know the background of this poem.One day while I was eating my dinner with my family outside, I looked out the door, and saw a cat.It's paw was bleeding, no... The cat actually lost a paw, and the joint where the paw was supposed to be was bleeding.

Before I could start feeling sorry for the cat, something more caught my attention.The cat was digging the ground, for food perhaps. It was a tar road. There is no food there.Perhaps a cat like that do not have much intellect to know that there will be no food beneath the tar road.Yet the cat's will to live convicted me. Yes, the cat have less intellect. Yes, it was probably animal insticts.But, the conviction came when I recall the moments when I started giving up in life when I meet obstacles.It reminds me of the time when I indulged in self pity. I throw a whole pity party, as if the world revolves around me.

A lame cat shamed me. It probably won't sound very grand, but this poem, is really written in honour of a cat.A lame cat. A lame cat that is probably more inspiring than 95% of earth's population."You" would refer to the cat.

You say, "There is more to life"
I say, "Then show me what is life"
Show me things you find
Really,I don't want to be left behind

Adventures you tell - I do wonder,
Reflecting on my life - I start to ponder,
If the highest high will be too high,
Or maybe,
Perhaps like you said, "It is nigh, it is nigh"

If life's a bet,
Im reaching my final chips,
Remembering the lame old cat,
Really,
I wonder if I'm really reduced to bits.

But now that life's a snare
I can't even reach a tie
I don't think I'll ever care
Truly,
I'd rather try, or I'd rather die

Perhaps, the lame old cat is bright
It said, "Real life, is not yet out of sight
O God, I am wrong,
Now please,
Make me right.

Despite not being made by me. I think this post is really meaningful ya? How often have we complained how tough life is. Guess we shouldn't really say that until we become like the lame cat. Figurative speaking...

Reflections...

It Rained...

Have you ever wondered why God use rain to destroy mankind? That question came to my head as I was driving today. Why not use fire? He could have ask Noah to just hide in a cave and shut himself up.

But in the end, God did sent the rain to earth. I remembered playing a game once, and one of the NPC (Non-Playable Characters) said that rain was to cleanse the body. But the body, cannot be cleansed thoroughly. As I sit here typing out this post, I think of how dirty and unworthy I am towards God. So many times I told myself I would get my heart right with God, yet so many times I failed him.

Lately, I been doing more thinking than usual. I always think of what if I did this instead of that, or what if I had never took that road that leads to where I am now? Then I realize, there are endless possibilities. For all I know, I could have taken 1 wrong step and end up a situation worse than I am now. I could also be in a better place right now. So the more I wondered, I realize I should not be thinking about it.

But if I had taken another road, I might not be what I am today. But there is an assuring quote that reminds me. It is the statement that my Malaysian Studies lecturer told me and the rest of the class.

"My dear friends, everything happens for a reason."
Mr. Warren Lau

I guess there is a truth in that. The things that happen around us, the things that we all see and do, will always have a reason. As I think about things that happen around me, things like failing a test which I just had. I tell myself, I can learn from what I did or I choose not to. See, I believe that every time we come upon a stumbling block or a bad time. We can learn from it, or, we could simply choose not to.

Reflections...